Dearest Apologies

I'm a deer caught in the headlamp glow of your traffic jam life. and so Murderously i stand innocently all wrapped up into one Here in your path Crash And all i can think of is no And all you can think of is no No, i don't want to No, i don't need this No, i don't know what to do It's my last decision and it was so selfish. i wasn't thinking of you And now i've killed you and you've killed me And i did it so stupidly, please forgive me I wanted it so bad crouched in the darkness. i couldn't wait either, staring into your eyes I wanted what i couldn't have, and that was so heartless I saw the light and my legs began to rise Why i waited until you came along? i don't know As i sit here in a pile of myself thinking about it all Was it rash, or was this my fate? i'm sure it wasn't yours I'll take the blame, it was me who came into your path If it's all the same, i'm really sorry I can understand your families sad And if you can't accept my apology please don't feel bad about Cursing my name (atreyu) I'm just a deer who got caught. i got scared And i forgot what it was i was doing, what i was pursuing It's not the way i usually run my life What a mistake The whole time i'm asking: what am i doing? who is this running my thought process? I wish i would have thought before i did what i did And for that i'm sorry. i offer you my dearest apologies